|WHY I DO...|
IS TO SHARE WITH YOU
EVER SMALL AS IT MAY BE
A GLIMPSE OF ME.
I was thinking yesterday, Why do I do this? Is it because I am a collector? Am I an artist? Am I creative? Then the questions that always finds a way into my thinking... AM I an artist? Am I good enough? WHY do I torture myself? WHY do I think I even have a chance at being an artist? WHY do you do this Erika?
Last night my husband and son went to play racquetball and I sat at my table cutting paper, embossing card front, creating a card to send to a friend in a heated battle with cancer, and I realized why I do...
I do because my art no matter if someone sees it, as campy or amazing is a part of me I can share with a big ugly dark world. I have a little light (it's really a rainbow of my collections) that I can cast onto the life of another. I may not be and "artist" I am okay with that. I know that my "crafting" is a part of WHO I am not just something I do.
I had a downline over yesterday, we worked very hard prepping for her upcoming workshop. She is new to the business. She works hard! I am excited for her. We spent a good 5 hours designing and practicing for her workshop. I love sharing with my team. I love seeing them come up with different takes on techniques, to see them discover something that excites them. That is WHY I DO... I do because in my deepest places, I have a heart for art. I want to share it with the world
I get scared sometimes, I don't think I am good enough. I really struggle with that lie. I put myself out there a lot. I have overheard both good and bad. I have felt my heart break when someone tosses my little part of me in the trash can. I have felt my heart overflow with warmth when I walk into someones home and see a bit of me still watching over them. I love the idea of one day making my art my sole financial source, and know that that only will happen if I keep myself working hard to better myself. I am a fighter. I believe I can do that. I work very hard in many aspects of my life, wife, mom, bookkeeper, artist, friend whatever it takes to be the best me. So while some don't see what I do as "artistic" I choose to see myself as what I pray I CAN be. I want to encourage you today. You are good enough, you are a blessing in my life, you are what you work hard to be. You don't have to be the best in the world, just be the best you can be!